she'll be back.

fuck lahh !
what the heck is wrong with me !

faaaraaaahhhhh !
dy da bwat kao mcm tu pon kao nak cair dkat dy lagiii ?
its not worthit okayy !

damn it laa.
i thought yeah,, maybe we can be friends.
dah lame kott. xkan x ready2 lagii.

but everytime we speak on the phone,,
all those memories ive tried so had to get rid off
comes haunting back.

and fuck yess,, i miss her.

and now,, i just dont know what to do anymore.
i somehow still want you in my life.

its stupid,, i know.

maybe its best that we dont contact each other.
for the time being.
until im strong enough.

you didnt contact me today.
i wish you did.

but im glad you didnt.

STOP FUCKING WITH MY HEAD LAHHHH !

choose farah choose !

okayyyy.
i opened my mailbox today,,
and guess what i found.
an offer letter from unisel.
pfft.


" sekalung tahniah di atas kejayaan anda. sukacita dimaklumkananda ditawarkan tempat untuk mengikuti pengajiandi universiti industri selangor bagi pengambilan mei 2010. "


WHOAAA !
a year for foundation in TESL.

TESL tuuu.
ive always wanted to take tesl.
in fact i was suppose to take tesl with my friend,, hanie,,
before i got offered studying in uitm.
she's in unisel. taking tesl. dah degree kot.


sgt confuse okayyy.

but im so super excited for culinary tuh !
dah berkobar2,, then dpat offer nie plak.


teaching ?
cooking ?

wahahaha !
mane 1 nie !!!

mama said to go for tesl.

somehow im not feeling confident enough for it.
english dah laa berterabor cmnie.
but thats the point of taking it right ?
to learnnn ?

im really into culinary tu.
but when i think about the future,,i'll be more stable taking tesl.


haih.
registration day will be on the 26th of may.
bestari jaya,, selangor.
hulu mane ntah,, xtao laa.

eeee. mcm mane nie !
serabott !need to think deep bout it.
real deep.

blogging 4 am in the mornin'.

heyyy blog.

;D

its about time that i update you.

dont really know what to write if its not about her.

but ade laa org tu ckap,,

just write down whatever that pops in mind.

and since im so darn bored,,

and got nothing else to do.

pfft.

so,, first off !

gonna start studying again soon.

and i can officially lable myself as a student again.

LOL.

uintar in kelana jaya !

hell yeahhhhhh !

goodbye jB,, hello kJ !

klana jaya is practically in the middle of subang and pJ.

and that fact my dear,, makes me the happiest girl on earth !

subang.subang.subang.

ohh subang jaya terchenta !

;D

xbley bla.

i fuckin' miss :

>SUNWAY !

>ninnah kamilah asmoni.

>nasi lemak depan sekolah.

>asia caFe. poooooolllll !

>subway,,carl's jr and wendy's.

(no fuckin way ure gonna find yhose in jB)

>rezal hamid. shamm,,aku x rindu kao sbb kao slalu je mnyemak kat jB nie ha. ;P

>nawal nadia azimuddin.

>basketball. cnfrim dah karat kalao maen.

>honey,,sha,,aJ,,mia.

>nadzrul and hazree.

>HANA HIZAM !!! gotta see u again.

>aaron tan yg dah murtad sbb pindah klang.

and the list goes on and on.

i pretty much miss EVERYTHING.

so where were we.

ah yesss.

unitarrr.

university tun abdul razak.

culinaryyyyyyyy.

haha.

damn excited !

chef farahhh~~~.

cewahhh.

;D ;D ;D

i strongly believe i've found my passion.

some may question.

why culinary.

why the heck not.

watch me.

and then there's....

PITBULL LIVE IN MSIA !

OMGGG !

genting,, 15th of may !

am soooo going !

apsal laa overexcited nie.

bodo gile.

hah.

lemme see.

what else pops in mind.

haha.

nothin.

LMFAO !

the brain is definitely jammed.

pfft.

aite2.

nak keluar beli rokok sbb sngap gile.

hee.

time.

honestly,,
i really did loved you.
honestly,,
what we had was all true.
honestly,,
i know that i've hurt you too.

truthfully,,
for a while i did go crazy.
truthfully,,
i hope that you are happy.
truthfully,,
knowing you,, i do feel lucky.

frankly,,
i knew we could never last.
frankly,,
two years did seem so fast.
frankly,,
i accepted that it was just the past.

recently,,
i thought about you plenty.
recently,,
i woke up from my fantasy.
recently,,
i thought about maybe.

maybe,,
you and i could be friends.
maybe,,
we can start to hang again.
maybe,,
everything would be like back then.

however,,
would it be possible ?
however,,
am i sure i wont feel miserable ?
however,,
is it gonna be just another ripple ?

moreover,,
i need to make sure that im okay.
moreover,,
past is past and that's where it should stay.
moreover,,
there is nothing more that i can say.

furthermore,,
i think im over everything.
furthermore,,
thinking about you,, my mood doesnt swing.
furthermore,,
i've found someone who can make my heart sing.

lastly,,
i wanna say thank you.
lastly,,
i wanna say that i miss you.
lastly,,
i hope that you think of me too.

forevermore,,
you are someone i'll never forget.
forevermore,,
you are someone i wont regret.
forevermore,,
you'll be the reason my tears were shed.

could it be ?

dear blog,,

feels like its been ages since i wrote.

the truth is that i just dont know what to write.

so,, life's been good so far.

mama broke her arm,, so,,

did nothing much other than looking after her.

except for last week though.

went to melaka,,clubbing,,

then climbing gunung ledang the next day.

haha.

was with eka,, nad,, biey and angah.

then scha,,epy,,am,, lynn and danny joined.

it was probably the most fun night i had for so long.

;D

yeaaa,, i broke my new year's resolution.

bla bla bla.

haha. had a margarita with mama few weeks before though.

heh.

however there were some heavy woo-ing with the peeps.

when we were at ayoob,,

felt like we were devided into 2 groups.

definitely felt left out and clueless.

angah,,nad and biey were not in a good circle with the others.

didnt know if they were arguing or whatsoever,,

but lynn,,danny,, scha,,epy and am didnt join us clubbing that night.

found out that there might be something going on between epy and meen.

i know.

WHATTHEFUCK right.

haha.

a reliable source told me that epy was the one to

ask meen if she wanted to be with her.

fuck.

how twisted can this be !

i dont really give a damn bout meen anymore,,

but if what i heard was true,,

i would feel nothing less than being backstabbed by epy.

i mean,,

she and i are friends. right ?

and she once said that she was sorry sue took meen away from me.

what's that suppose to mean now ?

damn,, cant imagine them being together.

and what about scha ?

aih,, pening kepala kott fikirr.

the thing is that

idk how true this is.

there's always two sides of a story right.

i was waiting for her to tell me about it.

i mean,, im not gonna be mad or anything.

and if she would just come clean,,

then our friendship wouldnt be at stake so much.

anyhow,,whateverr lahh.

so what kann.

it shouldnt be any of my concern anymore.

until tonight.

when epy texted me,, saying :

'u ade masalah dgn i ke ?'

okayyy. wtf does that even mean ?

got really confused.

tried to call her,, but she didnt pickup.

epy,,

take it this way dawg,,

i malas nak gadow2 nie.

and sentap menyentap is so not my thing.

i admit that i got a lil pissed when i found out bout this.

but xde la i nak mengamuk pon kan.

its non of my business anyway.

but it would be better if you had told me bout it first.

but who cares kann.

just chill laa.

okayy ?

if i decided to let u read my blog soon,,

then i just wanna say that

its cool.

im cool with everything.

so,,whatever lahh.

we're cool aite ?

friends will be friends.

i hope. i xkan lupe the times u helped me when i was in need.

i just hope u'll think wisely.

what i mean is that scha is a nice person.

and if u've already found someone who could love u just as u are,,

dont let her out of ur sight.

and kalao lahh i decided to let all u people read my blog,,

haha.

which i doubt.

stop laa nak bgadow nie.

nak pulau2 ke.

kite kan dah besarrr. cewahh.

bende nie semua small matter je.

xpayah nak sterss2 kan life aite.

i love love love it when we were so close to each other.

g clubbing same2,, then camp dkat tepi pntai,,bbq.

kan bestt mcm tu.

i dont want to pick sides.

think about it,,peeps.

we could be the coolest people on earth.

kan3 ?

just a piece of my mind.

;D

i love ya'll ! okayy ?!

tp sygg eka lbey cket. hee.

;P

bnyk pulak farah nie nag mlm nie.

haha. bosan sgt la nie.

aite.

gonna hit the shower,, then off to bed.

nite2 ! X)