back to life. =)

okayy.
am going back to kl tomorrow.
well,, today,, technically.
well,, in a few hours to be exact.
haha.

along with sad and his annoying yet cool bro.
haha.
riding in cars with boys like drew berrymore laa konon ?
:p

if we reach kl in time,,
we should be attendidng atiqah's open house.
at 8pm.

then later that night,,
later tonight that is.
i would love to meet up with
miss zettira farhanna.
;D
bnyk hutang nak dibayar. kan yanggggg ! :D
haha. tak bley blahhhh.
she ym-ed me just now.
merepek ntah hape2.
but yeahh,, i laughed my head off.
hee.

so thats about it.
since idk when imma come back to jb,,
or when imma update my blog.
till then.

shinchan : sy syg awk and im always missing you.
boo : you know. imy ! take care,, whatever you do,,okay ?

xoxo.

pure morning.

got myself a five hour sleep.
JOY !
seriously,, im quite worried.
not sleeping for days,, and when i sleep,,
its only for a few hours.
my body gets tired.
exhausted,, drained out.
but i cant seem to be getting enough sleep.
something is definitely bothering me.
i just dont know what it is.
sheesh.

so,,
as i was just trying to shut my eyes in the afternoon,,
yulie called.
nak dtg beraya.
heh.
so yeah,, she and dilla came,,
along with another couple,,
i cant remember their names.
it was fun.

boy,, cant wait to get back to subang !
damnnnn.
so many plans had to be canceled.
:(

this is like the first time in sooo long that i feel
excited and cant wait for class to start again.
haha.
really. cant wait ! the kitchen should be ready,,
therefore basic cookery class should be starting.
weeeee. ;D

so.
today's topic :
i feel like nagging bout relationship status.
haha. yeahhh. JACKPOT !
:D

well,, frankly.
what is it not to love bout being single ?
you're free,,
nobody control's you.
no commitment.
you can flirt around all you want ! haha.
honestly. i am comfortable being where i am right now.
relationship wise.

but i gotta admit.
i do miss being committed at times.
being loyal.
loving and being loved by only one.
the one. *sighs.

i guess its true,,
once you're burned,, you're not the same.
that was me then.
loyal and committed.
but she fucked me up,,
and i guess i just lost it.
i want to be the old me again.
:(

now im like having this irrational fear of being committed.
in other word,, phobia.
its definitely hard for me to trust again.
a few people came into my life after her.
touched my heart i gotta admit.
but idk.
why is it not working ?
its not them,, i know.
its me.
issues with myself.

fuck it !
i wanna try everything all over again.
i wish my heart would just mend.
i wish that moving on is as simple as abc for me.
but noooo. i had to be sooo hung up on her.
pfft.
i want to take things seriously again.
i mean,, ive been fooling around a lot lately.
not taking things seriously.
everything !
joking bout stuff. even serious stuff.
sheesh.

maybe i'll just try ?
try to trust.
try relationship.
ive got nothing to lose anyway.
hit the hard bottom,, and you've got nothing to lose.
trust me.

insomnia !

okayyy.
what is it with me lately ?
what !
like i can only sleep once every two days ?
damnit !

its been three times in a row.
through out this past week.
i wont sleep for two days.
okayy,, scratch that.
not that i wont,, i CANT !
ive tried but i cant !

so,, i cant sleep for twho whole days,,
and i'd sleep the whole day when i could.
only if i take cough meds,, flu meds,, drowzy meds,, or weed.
fuck !

whattafuck !
imma junkie now ?!
apesal tak ngntok nie !
takde mnom coffee pon !
but i just cant seem to get some sleep.

hyper gle. then nty bad mood.
haihhhhh.

macam mane nak tdo ea ?
:(

breaking dawn !

hey ho.
just watched the twilight saga : eclipse two times in a row.
back to back !
whoaaaaa.
im lovin it !

favourite quotations :

jacob : "i'm gonna fight for you untill your heart stops beating."
edward : "isabella swan,, i promise to love you,, every momment,, forever.
would you do me the extrodinary honor by marrying me ?"
bella : "some say the world will end in fire. some say in ice. from what i've tasted
of desire,, i hold with those who favors fire.but if i had to parish twice,,
i think i know enough to hate to say that for distruction ice is also
great."

favourite scenes :

when bella asked jacob to kiss her. fuckkkkkk ! i get all excited ! tak ddok diam tengok ! haha.
and when the cullens and the wolves faught the newborns,, when jasper was giving the attack plan. hoho. t'was a verry cool scene.
jacob,, bella and edward in the tent all together. edward had to see jacob warming bella as she was freezing to death.

damnit ! i cant wait for breaking dawn !
eclipse was so much better than new moon.
and i gotta say i like eclipse better than twilight.
more action.
and bella finally realizes she's in love with jacob as well.
and damn ! bella and edward are enggaged for fuck's sake !
they'll get married in breaking dawn ! woohoooo !
tak sabarnye !
i actually know how the story will end anyways.

* taknak tao,, tak payah bace okay ! *

bella and edwars will have a baby.
renesme.
bella almost died giving birth so edward had to change her.
so renesme would be half vampire and half human.
and renesme ended up o be with jacob.
wtf right. i know.
haha.
so in breaking dawn,, they'll be fighting the volturi.
and bella turned out to be the most powerfull vampire !
haha.
damn ! im sooooo obssesed !
:D

breaking dawn,, in the making ! CANT WAIT ! CANT WAIT ! CANT WAIT !

colt 45.

okayy.
i fell asleep around 0030,, woke up around 0530.
knocked out for five fuckin hours !
i woke up and there were 5 missed calls and 7 unread texts.
pfft.
mmg tdo mati. dah mcm pengsan pon ye jgak.

so i woke up t go to the toilet.
looked myself in the mirror.
pergh. dah mcm hantu !
dark circle around my eyes.
muka pucat gle.
bibir pon pucat. rambot serabai.
mata kuyu.
haha. tak tao laa mcm mane bley lepas dgan mama balek tdy.

yelaa, i havent slept for two days !
so,, went out with my friend.
mcm cibaiii.
haha.
last night i got myself new experiences.
doing things i never did before.
ngeeee.
getting stoned in the middle of the highway.
shitmann ! now im reminded of the movie pineapple express !
hahaaaa ! nak tgok lepas nie.
so,,
i drove at first,,
but ble dah ting tong tuuuu.
pullover la.
bhahaa. then my friend took the wheels.
pergi makan abc paling sedap dkat jb !
;)

so,, hung out with yulie and dilla.
went back to their place.
kne lagi 1 joint before balek.
terbhaik cha !
haha. one of the feelings i'll never forget.
yeahh.

life's too short to take too seriously,, dude.
at least i know what its like. ;)

off.