lets talk future.

hello february !

the month of love. the month of my sixth semester for my DCA in unitar begins.

class should've started today,, but believe it or not,, the schedules are not even out yet.

so is the result for last sem's exams. but the grades are out though.

dah lama tak rasa cuak macam tadi. my hands were shaking as i browsed through my phone.

i was having the cold sweats. jantung berdebar2.

alhamdulillah,, my grades are okay. but it could've been better.

purchasing and cost control : A+

pengajian islam : A-

food service sanitation : A-

garde manger artistry : B

international cuisine : B-

and lepas kira2,, gpa was only 3.42. i was hoping for another DL. but what to do.

maybe i didnt try hard enough.

apepun,, syukur dgan grades yang sedia ada.

better luck next time. :')

was feeling down for a while,, but im okay now. i think.

rasa macam next sem nak amek 6 subjects. or kalau tak bz sgt,, maybe 7.

mcm dah terlambat je if i stick to the five subjects. nty grad lambat pulak.

hmmm. sabar je laaa farah. next sem please lahh kay.

takde mood. sheesh.

kau nak jd chef tapi kitchen classes kau dua2 dapat B.

kecewa dgan diri sendiri. tapi im sure ada hikmah.

kbai.

one blood.

dear blog.

i know i have neglected you recently.

for the past few months actually.

but you're still the one i come to to pour my heart out.

im currently in johor. sem break.

bro's having his break as well,, so the household is complete.

class will be starting on the 6th. and results will be out the day before that.

not looking forward,, really.

life's okay. except for the fact that i've gained weight over the months.

yeahhhh. my eating habit got way out of control.

i worry for my self sometimes. wish it would stop. sighs.

i really2 think i should stop smoking.

i started noticing lines on my face,, under my eyes.

i wish its just that easy. determination is not there.

went to the dentist today.

fuck i hate dentists ! they'll start nagging and telling you that you should stop smoking and

take care of your teeth and bla bla bla. boring ! dah la sakit !

"your gump is really weak" uhhhhh ! thats why i went to you,, dear dentist !

buat je diam2 takbley ? kene jgak membebel ? menyamp !

i stayed home mostly here.

went out with yulie a couple of times,, and with sad once.

other than that just groceries shopping with mama.

sometimes i feel like my life,, this time last year,, was the total opposite. pfft.

so,, was watching HIMYM (how i met your mother) lastnight.

season 7,, episode 10 made me cry. ='(

made me realize that sometimes people,, even the ones we love so much,,

wont appreciate our sacrifices,, no matter how big they are.

its every man for himself,, sometimes. life is cruel.

family crisis. a brother needs her sister right now,, gotta go.

we had a big fight yesterday. and i said some hurtful stuff to him.

i didnt mean it bro. i love you.

your blood runs in mine. i'm sorry.

imy,, anak pakcik ibrahim.

SUNFLOWER.

it's yellow shines brightly,,

just as the sun.

people choose roses mostly,,

but i think sunflowers have more fun.

blooming as tall as they can be,,

they became all flowers' king.

just like you my dearest hubby,,

with you i'm flying without wings.

surrounded by pretty yellow petals,,

no thorns so it does no harm.

my heart made of steels and metals,,

you melt away with your gifted charms.

enough said of how much i love you,,

may our love bloom forever.

dedicating this to my only bubu,,

for you are my beloved sunflower.

two thousand and twelve already.

hope its not too late to wish everyone a very happy new year !
=)
2012. the year the world would come to an end. so they say.
but who knows,, really.
only God.

im currently in jb.
ended my fifth semester last week and here i am.
weee.
had a feeling this sem's result wont be as great as previous sems.
but im still hoping.

i really2 miss blogging.
but my netbook is experiencing kerosakan wifi.
it cant connect to wifi-s connection.
ni pun pakai laptop mama.
kalau tak online pakai fone je lah.
and there's no fun in blogging thru fone.

anywho.
as promised. i managed to upload these two videos bout my family in youtube.
kalau berminat,, tgok. kalau taknak,, tak payah.
=)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vz7OmpA6wsk

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cuvqan4LZYM

another video is yet to be uploaded.

so,, new project : cupcakes.
i have to make cupcakes for an engagement.
people started ordering,, bla bla bla.
till then.

xoxo.

looking back.

before we know it,,

we're at the ending of the year 2011.

we've become another year older.

we gained another year of experiences.

we lost friends,, families,, loved ones.

still,, we gained new ones.

i've been busy with the assignments and all the preparations for my final exams.

(two weeks time)

and i have to get a few slide shows done for my family reunion next week.

of course the task was given months earlier,,

but me being me,, tgal seminggu bru nak buat lah kan.

so i got lotsa photos of the family.

zaman aku tak wujud lagi pun ada. gambar hitam putih.

haha.

and then gamba masa kecik2,, masa rambut mushroom.

heee.

have u ever look at the young-you photo,,

and just wondered if u had known that you'd turn out to be the now-you.

would you do anything about it ? would u change anything ?

honestly,, looking back,,

i thought i'd be someone very different from who i am now.

im not saying i dont like me. but.

idk. how else could i had been right.

so dear readers,, do u like who u turned out to be ?

is life okay for you ?

i think. however life turned out to be for us,,

make full use of it.

u can be who you want be. the door will always be open.

unless,, of course,, you die. haha.

just kidding.

gotta go. two slide shows to be done. i'll upload it when its finish.

i love you,, blog.