N K asmoni.

was watching confessions of a shoppaholic on the tv just now.

i know its supposed to be about how a girl saves her self from spending too much on shopping.

but towards the ending,, there's this scene about rebecca (the main character) and her bestfriend

hugging at her bestfriend's wedding,, over one stupid dress.

believe it or not,, that scene brought tears to my eyes.

all of the sudden im reminded of nina.

how she helped me through my nightmares.

and how we fought over some stupid past.

the thing is right now,, both of us has this huge load of ego in us.

she expects me to apologize.

and i wouldn't do it for the third time.

is it not enought for two times in a row already.

ohh nin,,

i wishyou'd just stop the dramma.

you and i know that it is nothing anymore.

why should i take the blame of something three people did together.

how could you forgave rezal and not me ?

and how could you twist things up when you're telling nawal your side of the story.

i think nawal would agree with me when we say that you're a bit f a drama queen.

life is like a sad latin drama for you.

nonetheless nin,, we do LOVE YOU !

i still live you. and god knows how much i miss you.

to hang with nawal and not you ?

feels like im missing an empty piece.

we're suppose to be a fuckin tripod.

i want to be there for you.

i know you're going through tough times right now.

but wtf do expect me to do ?

kao nak aku dtg rumah kao pujuk kao sorg2 ?

be realistic. mama aku pon aku tak buat cmtu.

i wish you'd just stop faking.

i wish we'd be okay soon.

before this feeling of missing you transforms itself to being hating you.

aku rindu kawan aku.

aku rindu NINNAH KAMILAH ASMONI.

tapi aku takkan buang ego aku untuk kali ke tiga.

its your turn,,babe.